1am.
It is 1am, and I’m not sleepy. Since the Cosfest weekend I’ve been sleeping at 1.30am every day. Doesn’t bode well for Wednesday >.< I really dread going back to work, having to wake before 6am and before 5am sometimes; coming back all drained; and feeling really shitty after calls. And the horrible feeling of screwing up. Every day that I screw up something, I tell myself, “I won’t make any mistakes tomorrow.” But tomorrow comes, and I screw up a different way.
Am now in a state of underlying anxiety for certain matters (yes, worrisome matters that might have potential wonderful outcomes), which will be compounded by work anxiety again when this break ends. I really need to partition one part of my brain for worries that can go into standby mode so that I can relax.
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